NEWS AND TRIBUNE
David Camm, who was found not guilty last week in the September 2000 murders of his family [wife, Kim, and children, Brad and Jill], has penned a letter to his supporters. Last week’s trial was Camm’s third in the deaths of his family. The letter, according to Camm’s uncle, Sam Lockhart, was meant to be only for the more than 900 people on his Facebook support group. Lockhart has given permission to the News and Tribune to print the letter in its entirety.
Here is the letter:
Dearest Friends and Supporters, no that’s not right, Dearest Family,
This is Dave. First let me say that as I sit here trying to write this, I’m going to do my best not to soak the page of paper that I am writing it out on with my tears, because to be perfectly honest I’m having a difficult time holding them back.
What can I say? Thank You? That hardly seems adequate. No, I’m afraid there just aren’t the right words to put my appreciation and love for you all on paper. My heart is overflowing with love for each and every one of you. The sacrifices, dedication and emotional investment that you willing express in both words and action for little ole insignificant me is hard to wrap my head around. On one hand I had the State of Indiana represented by people I thought were my friends, people who I thought cared for me trying to take my life from away as well as trying to deny justice for Kim, Brad and Jill. On the other hand there are all of you. Over the last thirteen years I have seen the worst in people and thanks to all of you I have seen the best. The cards and letters you have sent me have been a real source of hope. Not just in the possibility of our success with the justice system but with the possibility of the world not being the evil place that I at times over the last thirteen years perceived it to be. I can never repay you for what you have done for me; I thank God for each of you.
I am sure some of you are wondering how I am doing so I want you to know I am doing very well. It is an obvious adjustment but believe me, I have been through worse! I am choosing to move forward. I don’t want to be consumed by the past. They, the State, are not going to take more from me than they have already have gotten. My focus is the future but obviously there are logistical things to deal with and we will process them as they come.
When a person uses the word overwhelming it may have differing definitions dependent upon an individual’s life experiences and perceptions of things. Because I consider you my true friends, I want to share a bit of myself with you so that you can not only understand what this has been like for me, but also so you can share this experience with me as I contemplate this journey.
Yesterday morning I decided to begin my day early as I didn’t want to miss a single moment through excessive sleep. I found myself sitting on a nice comfortable couch drinking a cup of freshly brewed coffee as I sat watching the news on a 60” flat screen TV. In my hand I was holding my new iPhone and was listing to music I had downloaded from iTunes. I have a broad taste in music and at that moment I was listening to Katy Perry song “Wide Awake”. I was listing to the words and thought to myself, “am I wide awake”? Am I really awake or am I dreaming and this is just one more painful illusion of something I’ll never truly experience? I reminded myself though, “Dave you are awake”! Yes this is real; yes you are here in this place. Yes you are doing all these things that you never thought you would ever do in your lifetime. My realization, “I AM AWAKE and I AM ALIVE and IT’S A MIRACLE”!
God had moved a mountain and He saved me [using lots of instrumental people of course] then as I sat there with all those wonderful thoughts running through my mind, I cried for about ten minutes. No one around, just me and my thoughts and the Good and Gracious God who made it all happen. I am a blessed man.
So here I sit on the same couch, at the same table, with the same television and drinking a weight loss shake, listening to AC/DC writing you wonderful people a letter so that I could attempt to express my love and appreciation for all of you. However I’m once again unable to do so because, quite frankly, I don’t have the words. So let me just say a simple “thank you”. And I hope God blesses you each and every day. I know He has and will me. It’s impossible not to feel blessed, after all “I’M FREE”!!
Emotionally this is about the extent I feel comfortable in sharing now knowing I look forward to a future where I will be able to convey more of my thoughts and feelings as we process this and move forward. At this time the loss of my beautiful wife Kim, my son Brad and my daughter Jill is something I will have to leave to later as I can’t bear to write the words now. Thank You
The Camm Family: David, Kim, Brad and Jill.